pernah nggak sih lo merasa takut atau anxious ketika berada di situasi yang sebenarnya sangat normal?
pernah nggak lo merasa bothered, terganggu, ngga nyaman saat dihadapkan dengan orang yang justru memperlakukan lo dengan baik?
atau pernah nggak lo ngerasa super nggak nyaman dan ingin pergi ketika merasakan hal yang sebenarnya biasa aja?
sedih deh.
seharusnya merasa paling aman dan nyaman berada di rumah sendiri, tapi justru merasa begitu ketika hanya seorang diri.
seharusnya merasa bahagia dan lengkap saat semua orang rumah berkumpul, tapi malah pusing seribu keliling sibuk mengantisipasi apa yang akan terjadi.
seharusnya bisa bicara banyak hal dan tertawa, malah diam seribu bahasa dan memilih menghindar.
it's only been 3 days since he went back home but i'm crying for 2 days straight at night.
it feels that it's better when he left the home for almost 6 months.
i didn't want to cry in the first place, but it just happen naturally.
it went down so smoothly, without a sound, then become dry quickly.
i just wish that i wouldn't be this bothered. wish that i would be okay. wish us, to be okay.
i just wanna feel and experiencing anything that normal, as per they say.
expressing feelings, feeling warm, being safe, in your own home with your own family.
guess i'm going back to the counsellor's room for another consultation then.
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