#SelfLoveMatters

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pasti kalian umum dong dengan self-love atau bahasa indonesianya mencoba mencintai diri sendiri alias accept who we really are. term ini somehow populer di platform instagram dan sosial media lainnya. ada yang bentuknya campaign, atau sebatas hashtag aja. but i think i love the idea of #SelfLoveMatters indeed.

i don't know about you, but i used to hate myself terribly. i hate my appearance, my body shape, my family, and the whole, bigger picture of me and my life. gue suka wondering, coba gue begini, coba gue begitu, coba gue kurus, coba gue mancung, coba gue pinteran, dan thoughts lainnya yang berujung hating at myself or self-shaming. ditambah gue orang yang tertutup. gue susah cerita ke orang karena gue ngga percaya mereka bakalan dengerin cerita gue atau sebatas nanggepin. ya biasalah negative thinking at everything. 

but then i gave my second thought. apa gunanya self-hating? buat apa self-shaming? kenapa harus overthinking at everything when you just have to accept who you are? dan kenapa menutup diri lo completely when there's people out there who sincerely care for you? itu yang gue pelajari beberapa waktu belakangan ini. kayak yaudah gitu. hidup jalanin aja. make good relations with others. dan nyoba percaya sama orang lain karena somehow they lift your weight when you have a problem. kayak cerita ke temen lo entah kenapa ngeringanin beban hati lo. sebenernya ini berkaitan dengan gue untuk keluar dari comfort zone gue sih. ya intertwine gitu lah.

dan yang gue pelajari juga adalah, don't victimized yourself. gue sekarang benci cara pandang orang terhadap dirinya sendiri sebagai suatu 'korban' dari kehidupan ini. i'm like, no you're not. this is your life and you have the control to overcome it and be the leader of your own life. victimizing yourself is like, seeing yourself in a weak, have no power point of view. you have the control to change it, and you just have to overcome & be brave to make those changes. and i did. gue bisa terbuka, gue mencoba accepting diri gue sendiri, dan yang lagi proses adalah gue ingin pengalaman gue mengajarkan gue sesuatu karena kata seseorang gue bego di kehidupan. ya pokoknya pengen belajar banyak tentang kehidupan sih.

jadi, gerakan #SelfLoveMatters gue akan terdiri dari beberapa tahap. yang pertama, find acceptance within yourself. kedua, go out from your comfort zone to learn something new. ketiga, don't ever set yourself to be the victim of something that happen. keempat, be the leader of your own life. dan yang terakhir, love yourself unconditionally. trust me. loving yourself more will teach you something and you'll see the world through a different perspective cause you'll see it in optimistic way instead of pessimistic. ya itu menurut gue sih. tiap orang kan beda-beda.

so,

"it was when i stopped searching for home within others and lifted the foundations of home within myself

i found there were no roots more intimate than those between a mind and body that have decided to be whole"

good luck!