"It's both blessing
and a curse
to think everything
so deeply"
banyak orang yang bilang,
"why do you have to think everything on your own?"
"why do you have to keep everything by yourself?"
"you don't trust people that much, do you?
hm let's see.
i already said many times before this, that i've got a thing like trust issue. gue bukanlah seseorang yang gampang percaya akan tindakan seseorang. entah dia melakukannya ke gue, atau membicarakan sesuatu yang lain. i do see the positive side of people, that's why i don't fall that easily into a rumors or something. but i do have my own kind of shield, and that's the reason why i do have this trust issue thing.
kalo dikaji dari tipe personaliti gue, which is INFP, gue memang tipe orang yang terkesan menghindari masalah. gue malas punya konflik sama orang, dan gue juga ngga berpikir untuk mencari masalah... tapi gue bingung.
disaat gue selalu melihat sesuatu dengan perspektif gue yang memandang positif, people would told me "why do you have to avoid that?"
apakah gue terlihat menghindarinya?
well, sorry to say. gue tidak bermaksud, dan kalaupun disuruh jujur gue juga ngga tau mau bilang apa...
like, i don't see anything wrong with that and i also don't have any problem with it.
so is it wrong to think positively?
tapi yes, i do realize that i kept everything onto myself. i do think, and overthink everything by myself. sometimes i think that, this is just my thing. i am an introvert sooooo, yeah.
selain gue malas mencari orang untuk dijadikan cerita (trust issue?), gue juga bingung gitu kalo mau cerita gimana cari ngeluarinnya.
like, i have no idea.
the thing is, because i kept everything for so long, i tend to forget how to explain it in words.
yea, my bad.
jadi ya gitu.
tapi gue bingung,
ada quotes kan ya.
"sometimes quiet people have the loudest minds"
tapi gue ga cuma berisik di pikiran gue sendiri...
gue juga bawel di real life.
jadi gimana dong?
hehe.
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